Oh, poor fern. At least that was easily replaceable.
Well, I’m glad you think so. And it kind of is. But then you think back to the movie and it’s very simple. Kathy gets hired to sing for Lina as Lina’s voice is really only suitable for silent pictures. Lina matches her movements to Kathy’s voice, so thus real-Lina must do the same to mine. The having the same name thing also helps to simplify things… unless it’s a conversation about show!Lina versus real!Lina and then that can get confusing. But yes, we’re good now. Just had to get into the swing of things.
Oh, they should! Could we sneak into their suitcases and go again if we promise not to disturb them at all during their honeymoon? And I know. It’s a process and I’m working on it, but I’m going to get there. I can already feel myself getting there. It really… well, it means a lot that you want that more than anything.
Yeah, I still think my boss would have preferred I mowed down the intern and not the fern. I think she’d have also probably preferred if I didn’t walk into work like something out of the Walking Dead, but hey at least we’ve all moved past it! Well except that intern, I think he has it out for me now.
Right, yeah, that makes a bit more sense now. At least now I understand why Lina has to stare at you so intently. Which is really nothing new, she’s always staring at you. I don’t think it’ll be too hard for her to learn your singing and movements. She’s your best friend after all. I think that’s probably why you two make a killer pair for this. Even I have to admit that.
Now that is a super tempting idea. Maybe we should just talk them into a destination wedding in Tahiti and give us a good excuse to go back. I’m glad you’re getting there. I know it hasn’t been easy but I know you’re trying. I am too, I swear. And of course I do. Why wouldn’t I want you to be happy? It’s definitely on the top of my list of favorite things in the world.
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I’m joking, Jeff! Trust me, I’m glad you two got to get away for a while— you deserved it. You know, we should! We still have a lot of decisions to make, actually, and that’s one of them.
Well good, I’m glad you did. Definitely nice to have a couple of days after to kick back and ease into everything again
I totally knew that. I was just teasing, yeah. Thanks though. I’ve already been working on swaying Finn. You know you totally want to. Haha, nah but whatever you guys choose I’m sure it’ll be awesome. How is the wedding planning going? Not too totally overwhelmed I hope.
Yeah, I think I’ve finally managed to get back on track with everything. And of course that’s when my boss wants me to fly out again. No rest for the music industry, obviously. How have you been? Did I miss anything good while I was gone?
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Nah I’ll be good, I won’t bring it up more than once a month. And hey, we haven’t really discussed honeymoon locations all that much yet, but I definitely think it’s in the mix now. How are you now, getting back to mainland life?
Only until you end up going there yourself. I’m telling you man, totally worth it. You know a tropical paradise is totally the way to go. That or winter wonderland. Funny, it’s like two extremes. Life’s pretty much gotten back to normal now, took a few days to adjust though. The biggest thing was going back to not spending every day with Harmony. Feels kind of weird, which is weird in itself, you’d think I’d be used to it.
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Well… it could have been worse? Glad you were able to clear everything up, though. And that the intern wasn’t actually mowed down.
Not without effort. I just do the best I can. And yes, actually. It’s really great to be working with her again. Our scenes together are shaping up to be really great. One annoying thing though is that she’s been watching me like a hawk as I develop Kathy. I think it’s so she can try and know exactly how I’m going to sing the songs that show!Lina “sings” so that she can prepare how she’s going to lip sync… but it’s a little weird.
It was. Talking about it is definitely making me want to go back. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so stress-free. Plus, the view, yes. And the happiness. It was… just really nice to forget about everything for a while.
Yeah, I had to apologize a lot for that one, but all things given not too bad for the first day back. No lasting damage. Well, except for that fern, but I paid to have it repotted.
Well, your best is pretty damn spectacular. I should know, I’ve been well acquainted with it for years. That sounds….kind of complicated actually. But I’m sure it’s not all that bad, it makes it better for the show, right? I’m sure you’ll get used to it soon.
I know right? I already told Finn and Tina that they should consider it for their honeymoon. It was definitely nice, but you know you can be happy again here. I want you to be happy, I want that more than anything.
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I can’t believe you didn’t want to let another couple tag along, I mean… c’mon. Finn and I wouldn’t have bothered you guys… that much.
I’m glad you and Harmony had such a nice time! I think that’s the only downfall of a nice vacation is getting back to reality.
It’s not that we didn’t want you to tag along, it’s just…hm, okay I’ll get back to you on that one. Hah, it’s like I told Finn you should totally consider it for your honeymoon.
Yup, that’s pretty much it. It definitely took a day or two to get out of vacation mode, but I think we’ve managed to recover.
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Any fun stories to tell about coming back to work post-vacation? And I think I’ve adjusted pretty well by now. Day 1 was just a bit of a rude awakening. Well, good. I’m glad you had a good time too. It was just really nice to be able to spend time with you and not have to worry about… anything, really - you having to leave, me having to leave, work. Plus, Tahiti was gorgeous.
Well I was pretty much a zombie my first day back. I definitely sent out a few emails to the really, really wrong people and spent all morning trying to clear that up. And I nearly mowed down an intern in the process. So you know, just the usual Monday for me.
You’re always quick to adjust, that’s one of your best qualities. I’m glad things are going well. You having fun being back with Lina? I know how you two tear up the stage.
Yeah, leaving all those worries behind…it was the best. It was definitely what we needed, that’s for sure. It really was beautiful, wasn’t it? Thinking about it makes me miss the view. But not as much as I missed seeing you happy.
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Have I mentioned how jealous I am that you and Harmony got to go away to Tahiti like that?
Something tells me I’m definitely going to hear about it now. Seriously dude, take it under consideration for your and Tina’s honeymoon.
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Hopefully you were more successful than me. I definitely had to pay the price for still being in vacation mode during Rehearsal Day 1… or maybe I just forgot how exhausting tap dancing could be. I’m glad you had such a good time, though. I did too.
Not by much, trust me. Tap dancing really is exhausting though, but a lot of fun. And I’m sure you’re doing better than you think. Of course I had a great time, you were there. I’m just glad you enjoyed it, that’s what matters to me.
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The sun, the surf, the two amazing weeks with the woman I love– I don’t think anything could beat that. It’s great to be home, but I don’t know how I’m supposed to get back into the swing of regular life after a trip like that.
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It seemed that for a while all Jeff and Harmony needed was a trip to Tahiti to make things better. That was, of course, a foolish notion, but for a while there he really did feel like they were growing stronger with their relationship. It was that sort of security that helped him feel confident enough to take on new roles with his career, including A&Ring Capitol’s newest artist, and Jeff’s friend, Dakota Taylor. The two worked closely together and became fast friends. Though, much to Jeff’s surprise, over time Dakota had developed feelings for him. A fact he found out in a very unexpected manner. There were many ways for that particular event to turn out, but the two had warm and accepting natures, especially towards each other. In the end, after deep emotional revelations by both of them, the two came out even closer friends because of it.
While one relationship was growing for Jeff, another was fading. Jeff and Harmony had been through a lot together, and after making an appearance at Finn and Tina’s wedding as part of the wedding party, it really looked like they were going to make it. Then work got more demanding for both of them, the distance was taking its toll and the one year anniversary of the loss of their child had brought with it plenty of hard nights for the both of them. It all proved to be too much and the couple split. It was a rough break up, not only for the loss of a woman he loved deeply, someone he had truly had thoughts about spending the rest his life with, but the loss of one of his best friends. Harmony had been a big part of his life for years even before they had started dating, and he didn’t know how to recover from losing someone that important to him. There were many nights he thought about flying to New York, begging her to take him back and to give him one more chance. However, her move to England had made that near impossible. He reasoned that it was probably for the best and upon reflection decided to take a more permanent position at the Capitol building in Los Angeles.
Jeff threw himself into his work after that, which proved to be quite fruitful. He was building a reputation for himself in the industry with connections to some of the best up and coming artist, including break out stars like Starchild, Sam Evans, and of course Dakota Taylor. He was good friends with the likes of pop artist Santana Lopez, fashion icon Kurt Hummel, broadway star Rachel Berry and television personality Sugar Motta. For a while there it seemed like he was really doing well. He felt like he was going to be okay as long as he had his friends and the world of music to keep him occupied.
Then things got weird.
Dakota came to him and explained what was happening with her and Sam, and why she’d need to rearrange her schedule for the tour and her next album. Which in turn had Jeff feeling very strange about the whole ordeal. He and Sam had been working on fixing their friendship, so he didn’t know why he had to hear about everything going on from Dakota. It seemed like an awful large part of one’s life to not mention to someone you were trying to rebuild a friendship with. That and a part of himself that he wasn’t proud of was jealous of Sam for so many reasons he didn’t dare speak, even to himself. He found himself distancing himself more from Sam, avoiding him as much as he could and making up excuses if he had to. Until Dakota came to him feeling overwhelmed because of what had been going on with her and Sam. When he saw Dakota doing the same thing he had been doing, he knew he had to step in. Seeing the way the two were when they were together, he knew that they only made each other better. So taking it upon himself, he started talking to Sam again. Using his friendship with the two he tried to encourage (or manipulate, however you see it) the two of them into talking to each other again and working through their problems. Miraculously, the two did end up working things out in a very, very good way. And Jeff, the lucky guy, even ended up godfather to their first child.
Truly, Jeff was happy for his friends and family. He loved watching them get further and go places in their lives. He loved watching his sister move up the company ladder, in prime position to take over. He couldn’t be happier when Ezra released his first album or when Sebastian finally made partner. But then he started to notice a trend, that trend being everyone he knew getting married and having kids. While it was something he’d seen beginning to happen soon after graduating high school, there’d been a noticeable upswing lately and it was beginning to feel like everyone he knew was starting a family. Well, everyone except him. When Sebastian Smythe of all people had settled down, Jeff knew that it was time to reevaluate his life. It wasn’t as if how he was living was bad. He had a great career, a sweet ride, a badass bachelor pad, and the greatest friends and family a guy could ask for. Years after his break up with Harmony, he was happy, really he was. That didn’t mean he didn’t feel lonely sometimes. He’d tried dating since then, but to be honest, Jeff was always terrible at the dating game. For a long time he felt like maybe there wasn’t someone in the cards for him. Then his sister got married.
It was a beautiful ceremony and watching his sister (another person he’d never thought would settle down) finally tie the knot with the man she loved (the one guy Jeff eventually approved of his sister dating) was an amazing moment in time. Being surrounded by love like that was incredibly uplifting and had him in a good mood, despite his lack of plus one to the wedding. The only thing that could possibly make it any better was tripping over one of the, then drunk, bridesmaids and spilling champagne on one of the guest, thus ruining her dress. Normally, that would have been terrible if it hadn’t turned out to be so wonderful. She took his breath away the moment he laid eyes on her, and he knew he had to ask her out. And after a series of unfortunate mishaps, she finally agreed to give him a shot. And there was only a little begging involved.
Her name was Alison, and she was one of his sister’s friends from her Crawford days. As it turned out she lived in LA too, as a voice actress who picked up modeling on the side. She also played bass, rode horses, and had a graphics art degree. Basically, she was the coolest girl he’d ever met. She was not only everything Jeff never knew he wanted, but also everything he needed at the time. After their awkward start, they ended up really hitting it off. For once, the dating whole thing was actually working out for him, and he saw himself having a real relationship with this woman. Something he hadn’t had for a long time, not since Harmony. With time things progressed. They met each other’s families, moved in together, bought a house together. Then Alison brought up the one thing Jeff had been too scared too ever since he realized just how serious and committed they were getting. She wanted to start a family.
In various points of his life Jeff had wanted to be a great many things, an astronaut, a professional soccer player, a dancer, a singer, a musician, a producer. But for as long as he could remember he’d always wanted to be a dad too. The timing felt right, and he thought that this was finally the time for him to start.
As usual, things didn’t quite work out the way he’d planned.
They were having trouble. At first it seemed like a fluke, as if maybe they were overreacting. But as time passed by, Alison began having doubts. Jeff reassured her that everything was fine, but she was adamant about seeing a doctor about it. So they tried the doctor, they got checked out, they tried the hormones, and the therapy and everything else that seemed to have no effect. When the In Vitro didn’t take, Jeff saw the toll it was taking on his girlfriend and suggested maybe taking a break from trying to have kids. But Alison didn’t believe in giving up (which wasn’t the same as a break, as Jeff reminded her), and instead they ended up seeing a different doctor. This one didn’t have good news. One consultation led to another, there was a series of test involved and quite a few months of drug therapy. The end result was a hysterectomy. Which meant no kids, ever. Things got bad after that. Alison got bitter and angry and no matter what he tried to do, things only seemed to be getting worse between them.
She left him. It wasn’t an explosive fight, she didn’t sneak out in the middle of the night, or tear apart the life they’d built together. She told him calmly over breakfast what she was thinking, and as expected that didn’t fly well with Jeff. He begged her not to leave, to try and work things out instead. He spent hours and hours trying to convince her to stay, that they didn’t need kids to be happy, that their love was enough. But she wasn’t one to sway once her mind was made up. She wasn’t the same anymore; she needed time to figure herself out and it wasn’t fair to him to wait for her to do that. At least that’s what she told him. There was only so long that he could fight it, and he’d been fighting for a long time. Fighting nature to let them have kids, fighting her disease so that she’d be healthy and safe again, fighting her when she was only a ghost of her former self. He loved her, but deep down he knew he had to let her go. But letting her go didn’t come easy, and the pain of what he’d lost ran deep. When the opportunity for a new job in Chicago came up, he took it.
Jeff had a habit of running away when things got rough, and this proved to be no different. He focused himself on his work, delving into this new endeavor. He was really proud of the project he was working on and the new band he was working with. Knowing that they had lots of potential, he hoped to get them the exposure they needed to really take off with their careers. It was new, refreshing and a lot of hours of work on his part, something he really needed to take his mind off of yet another failure of a relationship.
He got comfortable in Chicago. He saw his friends there frequently and was closer to Ohio. Things were going well and he was starting to make a nice little life for himself. Then he ran into the most unexpected person in the cereal aisle of his neighborhood grocery store.
It turns out, he and Nick Duval were neighbors, who would have thunk it?
Despite their efforts to maintain a friendship over the years, as time went by they’d started talking to each other less. The real nail in the coffin though was probably when Nick didn’t invite Jeff to his wedding. Needless to say, communication had ended rather quickly after that. If not for the incredible awkwardness of no one wanting their ex-boyfriend around their current husband, then because Jeff really didn’t know how to face Nick after that. Seeing the opportunity to make up for the past Nick asked Jeff to coffee, and against his better judgement, he agreed.
Two things were made abundantly clear over coffee. The first being that they had grown to become two very different people from the boys they were in high school, and the second being that it did nothing to lesson the attraction they had towards each other.
What was supposed to be a quick coffee turned into hours talking on the veranda of a coffee shop and catching up with each other. Nick explained how he’d gotten a job at a nearby charter school, and Jeff talked about his work with the new band he was trying to sign. They spent the afternoon talking about anything and everything under the sun, from education and the music industry to guilty pleasure shows and the terrible quality of a stranger’s comb over. Everything except for the topic of the failed relationships that drove both of them to Chicago in the first place. This time when they parted ways and promised to keep in touch, they kept their word. Slowly but surely they rebuilt their friendship, a process Jeff was finding he was all too familiar with, having done the same thing with most of his ex’s throughout the years.
They moved slow. They had too, both too scared and scarred to jump into something like they may have in their youth. But being with Nick was like stepping into an old pair of shoes, it felt weird but oddly familiar. In some ways it was kind of like picking up where they left off, everything felt warm and familiar with a tinge of nostalgia. In other ways it was difficult, they were different people now and for a while Jeff had to keep reminding himself that the Nick he knew now wasn’t the same kid he dated when he was seventeen. It was easy to get lost in memories, and for the sake of their relationship they knew they couldn’t lose sight of the present. Too much had happened in the many years since they’d dated, but they worked through it. Nick opened up about his divorce; Jeff talked about his obstacles with having kids. They learned to love each other again, for who they were now– scars, baggage and all.
For anyone who knew them, really knew them, the announcement of their engagement came as a surprise to absolutely no one. It was a love story twenty years in the making, or at least that’s how the wedding planner was trying to present it. Jeff didn’t really care as long as at the end of the day, he was married to Nick Duval. They were both scared, but Nick was especially terrified. He’d done the marriage thing before to disastrous results, but Jeff reassured him that they would work out. They always worked it out, and as long as they were together they would be okay. He believed in them, he always had and he was certain that he always will. They were foolish kids desperately clinging to each other because they were afraid of change. The timing was finally right, and he knew in his heart and down to his bones that they were making the right choice. As scared as he was, he only hoped Nick felt that way too.
A year into their marriage they made the move to Los Angeles so Jeff could keep working with the band, who upon their growing success, had decided to relocate. Nick complained about how being so far west would turn him into a platinum blonde surf bum, to which Jeff responded by buying him bleach. Jokes aside, it turned out that Nick adjusted to the new territory pretty well, much to Jeff’s relief. He’d been scared that pulling Nick out of his comfort zone and away fro everything he knew would cause problems, but he was more than happy to be wrong it this case. It turned out Nick ended up loving the weather and despite his aversion towards the beach, he loved driving along the coast to work every day. Jeff, meanwhile, was just glad to finally be home. While he liked Chicago and found it a nice place to live, he loved LA and everything the city had to offer, food, surf, friends and everything he’d grown to love (and now with Nick included!). Sure he had some terrible memories here, but he had tons of amazing ones too. With his new husband he planned to make a million more.
Their new life together was going well, and it was only a matter of time before Nick cautiously brought up the idea of kids. Unsurprisingly, this time Jeff was the one who was terrified. He’d tried having kids before, and always to disastrous results. He was scared of what would happen to them if things didn’t work out again. But they were getting older, and it really felt like the right time. Which, again didn’t feel unfamiliar; he’d had the same thoughts with Alison. Now he didn’t even speak to her (though he had received the Christmas card with the picture of her, her husband and step-son in matching sweaters). This time Nick was the one to reassure him that everything would be okay, that they’d stand by each other no matter what happened, and that they’d vowed to each other to do so. That meant something, right?
What it meant was that Nick really was the best support he could ask for, and vice versa he was sure. For anyone who didn’t know, adoption could be really hard sometimes, and despite all their research Jeff felt like he was completely unprepared about a hundred percent of the time. They’d spent so long waiting, and just when it seemed like something would work out for them, it fell through completely at the last moment. It took a heavy toll on both of them and after some time they decided to rethink their plan. Nick suggested surrogacy, and Jeff figured that he’d literally tried everything else so they may as well give it a shot. One of Nick’s close friends agreed to carry for them, and Jeff insisted Nick be the biological father. Nick wanted for neither of them to know who the biological father was, but Jeff reassured his husband that he’d love any child with Nick’s DNA. Besides, he was still slightly convinced he was jinxed and hoped that with Nick being the one donating then something would actually go their way. It was superstitious, but at this point he wasn’t taking any chances.
The eggs took.
After the three days it took them to finally settle on a name, it took them six more before they finally announced it to all their close friends and family under the assertion that they had to be sure the name suited her (an excuse which amused no one when they all wanted to see the baby). But everyone agreed, Anna Leigh Duval-Sterling was as perfect as they came. Or rather, that’s what Jeff repeatedly claimed and everyone agreed to for lack of any other option. Nothing would sway Jeff’s opinion that his baby girl was the smartest, most beautiful child to ever grace the earth. Nick wholeheartedly agreed, though not as exuberantly as his always overenthusiastic husband.
If anyone asked him, Jeff would tell them the best moment of his life was the first time he held his baby girl. After years of being Uncle Jeff, he was finally Dad. And while they were still years off from hearing her actually saying that word, or any word for that matter, he was incredibly happy with just knowing that he was her dad. It hadn’t been an easy road to get here, and he knew it wouldn’t get any easier in the future. He could kiss sleep goodbye, his anxiety would be through the roof and if his nieces and nephews taught him anything it was that they should be prepared for anything and everything because kids were even more unpredictable than his wildest dreams. But holding Anna in his arms and having Nick by his side, he knew it was all so totally worth it. He had his family, and the life they’d build together would be a great one.
It’d been a long, winding road to get here, but this story was only just beginning.
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